My Diari

Kadang kita tdk menyadari bhw ssorg yg kita pedulikan
Ternyata…. juga butuh wkt n ruang tuk dirinya sendiri.
Zo.. dgn alasan cinta kita mulai deh.. eng eng eng….mengekang n membatasi ruang gerak mrk.
N ktk mereka hengkang becoz tertekan, kita cuma bs bertanya ma diri sendiri..
“apa salahku??? aku cuma ingin mencintainya dgn sederhana”

Cinta ternyata tdk sesederhana itu. cinta itu posesif, pamrih n egois.
Atas nama cinta kita coba mengatur kehidupan ssorg spt yg kita inginkan,…lol!!!!

"Instead of letting them live their life freely as they used to be "

Mencintai tapi tetap memberikan ruang n wkt bg org yg kita cintai.
Terdengar amat mudah,padahal sesungguhnya itu adalah hal yg amat sulit tuk dilakukan……..
Becoz cinta itu mang posesif, pamrih n egois.

Aku pernah jatuh ke lubang yg sama krn keegoisan yg sama.
Aku tdk meyadari bhw yg diperlukan mrk adalah wkt n ruang tuk dirinya sendiri….
Tuk menjalani hidupnya sebagaimana dulu sebelum kami bertemu,
Ampe akhirnya .. aku bertemu dgnnya…..

Terima kasih .. masa lalunya yg begitu menghantuinya (spt jg sebenarnya masa laluku menghantuiku).
Keadaan sekarang akhirnya bs membuatku belajar tuk menghargai ssorg lebih bae lagi n dgn amat legowo….( hehehe dpt kata baru neh …kakakaka )
Aku sadar n belajar dr masa lalu, tapi gpp.. kalo itu mang satu2nya hal yg kan membuatnya merasa jd lebih bae…jiehhhhhhhhhh

ZO…how bout u??? are u stupid than me??? kakkakaka of coz i smarter than u?? think zo???

When someone is in ur life for a REASON, ….it’s usually to meet a need u have expressed.

They have come to assist u through difficulty, to provide u wit guidance n support, to aid u physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend n they are……

They are there for the reason u need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on ur part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer u sent up has been answered n now it’s time to move on. Kutipan ini buat semua kalian2 yg sekarang lagi ngerasain jatuh bangun bercinta.

Cinta tak semudah yg dibayangkan my dear friends…..!!!!

But onething yg elo harus inget, semua ada alasannya ktk seseorang masuk ke dalam kehidupan elo!

Make that a lessons for u……..ok???

Ada satu pertanyaan yg ga gue sadarin selama ini…..

Selama ini gue ga perna sadarin setelah sekian lama di dunia cyber…..napa gue na ga perna nanyain ke temen2 cyber….lg dimana? negara apa?..laen yg ditujuin bt gue…dari mulai online….ampe offline….setiap message yg masuk….kata2 pertama yg disodorkan..lage dimana? negara mana? …nah LOL!!

N dah diselidikin…napa ga org laen yg di tanyain? napa hanya gue?? nah sangat aneh bukan????….dan timbul BIG QUESTION dipala ku…..apakah mereka beneran perduli ma aku..care ma aku????..kalo bener…terima kasih….kalo cuma bermaksud bt gosip2an…..wuah…..jaat amit tuh org…..hehehe…..

Sebenernya tuh masalah kecil….tapi ampir setiap hari dr siang ampe malam…ampe pagi buta….ditanyain stp org yg pm….apa ga merasa jadi aneh….jd BT….lho…jd jwb na tuh2 aja……kdg dah di jwb….ga pcaya n minta no epon…..nah…apa maksud nya ya???…

Kira2…apa sih sebenarnya maksud sebenarnya……apa yg bisa tolong mengartikan nya????

Neh pilem gue nonton di pesawat…

Berikut kutipan salah atu dialog menarik… , kata2 Bibi Peter Parker: ……

"Too few characters out there, flying around like that, saving old girls like me…N Lord knows kids like Henry need a hero. Courages, self-sacrificing people, setting example for all of us……Everybody loves a hero. People line up for them, cheer them, scream their names…… N years later, they’ll tell how they stood in the rain for hours, just to get a glimpse of the one,… who taught them to hold on a second longer. I believe there is hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble, and finally allows us to die with pride……. Eventhough sometimes we have to be steady n give up the things we want the most. Even our dreams"……..

Hebat!!!!!!!!!! .keyennnnn!!!!!!!. pilem ini ada aspek manusiawinya. Di akhir pilem ini,……. Mary Jane berkata ke Peter Parker alias Spiderman,………..

"Isn’t it about time somebody saved your life?" …………

Meskipun jagoan, tetap aja Spiderman tuh manusia yg memiliki kelebihan n kekurangan ….ya ga? ya ga????? mao donk jd spiderwoman…..hihihiiii

Pertanyaan…………..

- Apakah kita congkak?
Biasanya org tdk suka memiliki pemimpin yg merasa dirinya tao segala2nya.
- Merasa tdk mapan?
Jika anda tdk merasa nyaman dgn diri anda sendiri, lha gimana bisa harapin org laen merasa nyaman dgn anda?…
- Selalu berubah2 ?
Jika org tdk apakah mereka bisa berharap sesuatu dari anda, maka jelas mereka kan berhenti mengharap …
- Perfeksionis
Stp org memiliki keunikan n adalah mustahil tuk harapin orang untuk memenuhi standar diri kita sendiri …
- Sinis
Ini paling buruk, jk kita selalu mencari2 kesalahan org laen n sama sekali tdk melihat sisi positifna.

So, dimana kita saat ini?…………….hehehe..ayok dimana??

Bercermin di hadapan kenyataan
Terurai sepenggal cerita
Sesekali jatuh tetesan air mata
Masih terasa sakit
Walau mencoba tuk tegar

Sosok penghianat itu bermunculan
Sosok yg hanya ingin mencari nama
Yg rela menjual harga diri
Demi menjatuhkan sesamanya
Sesungguhnya apa yg kau cari?

Merenung sendiri dlm ruang sunyi
Berusaha menjernihkan pikiran
Menikmati sakit, memohon kekuatan
Introspeksi…….
N doa….

Kadang, nurani ingin melawan
Ingin teriakkkkk…. kamu salah!!!!!!
Tapi, hati tak ingin ada konflik
Kita pilih mengalah aja…….
N merendah serendah2nya!!!!!!

Kita percaya…….
Tuhan akan mendampingi…..
Pihak yg teraniaya…..
Walau sakit………..
Kita tetap tegar, berjalan….

Kini saatnya bangkit..kita……..

Dgn atu fenomena baru………
Bahwa tdk semua org itu bae……..
Bahwa ada aja org yg tdk suka……..
Meliat kebahagiaan kita………

Jangan lah pernah kita dendam..
Kerelaan ati kan lebih mulia……
Dibanding hati yg penuh iri n dengki…….
Walau kita harus jatuh………
Tapi sesungguhnya, kita menang………

Sepenggal cerita itu mengajarkan…….
Bahwa dlm sisi indah cyber……..
Ada sisi kelam……….
Bahwa seberapapun kita positif………
Ada aja pihak yg iri……….

Kita bangkit bersama ya…yokkkkk

Tuhan kan membuat segala sesuatu indah pada waktunya….

amin………..

Case has closed!!!!!!!

Everyone makes mistakes. Mistakes done by us can be caused by us ourselves or by third parties. Often times, we’re easily led by our own self esteem n self defence 2 blame others around us 4 the mistakes we have committed.

In general, the thought of we are responsible 4 our own mistakes cannot be comprehended by most of us. This’s normal for majority of human being, after all who wants 2 be blamed for any mistake, regardless of whether it is our or someone else’s mistakes?

However, having someone 2 blame 4 our mistakes does not solve the problem by itself n more often than not, it would only create more problem especially in the relationship wit that person or everyone else around us.

The only solution 2 this’s to find way 4 us to accept sole responsibility for our mistakes, learn from the incident, forgive ourselves n get on with lives, without severing any relationship u may already have wit any third party.

But how to achieve this? As an example, let say u did not achieve something u want to have, becoz.. from ur analysis, someone else had done something he or she shouldnt have done in the first place. Instead of blaming he or she for that, u perform a root cause analysis trying 2 find the cause of ur failure.

Sure enough u will get to the point where that someone was the cause of the whole mistake. However, don’t just stop there. Go back one step further n try to think wat u could have done 2 avoid that person from committing his mistakes causing you to lose ur goal.

Once u find all the possibilities of wat u could have done 2 avoid that person’s mistakes, now u have someone else to blame….urself…4 not doing wat u could have done.

U may ask whats the point if we blame ourselves 4 any mistakes we go through?

There are many advantages of accepting mistakes, blame ourselves 4 it n get on wit our lives.

1. Blaming ourselves for our failures avoids possible relationship..related problems wit the third party which could only creates more problem making u prone 2 commit more mistakes.

2. We can train ourselves at finding the root..causes of every problem causing our mistakes.. evaluate every possible actions we could have done, thereby presenting ourselves a chance 2 avoid similar problems in the future.

3. It is easier to forgive ourselves than to forgive others. I can go on n on n on 2 list down all the advantages of blaming ourselves but I hope the 3 reasons above would give u some hints of wat I’m driving at. So whatever bad things happen 2 u.. always find out wat u could have done 2 avoid it.. blame urselves 4 not doing it.. forgive urselves n get on wit lives.

I hope u enjoy this posting n if u didnt it was not ur fault, I could have done much better by many other means but I didn’t, so this’s my mistake. I’ll try better in my other posting. ..hehehe..buehhhhh

when two hearts can never be one…

In the stillness of the evening
When days lights grown soft and low
Theres a special window in my mind
where I always go

As I pull back the curtain
To gain a better view
Images flood over me
Memories of u

My senses seem to come alive
I smell loves sweet ur body taste
Relive again each precious time
As I embrace the moment
Relive each tender touch
Soft warmth courses through me
I need u zo much

Though distance separates us now
U are never out of view
For looking through souls windows
All I see, i’m miss u

Thus,
U’re the window of my heart
..LOL!! sapa ya????? u can be anyone…everybody…..u? u? or U???

Napa semua hrs curiga dgn mengatakan bhw co hny mencari n mengincar fisik ce saja?

Napa sih semua ce sll berpikir bhw co kan pergi stlh
co tuh berhasil menggauilnya? napa sih hrs co yg sll ditakutin?

Napa sih semua mandang co layaknya seekor kebo yg stlh selesai hastrat na kan pigi!

Napa kita tdk pernah memandang positif ke seorang co?
Sesederhana tuh tanpa memikirin bhw seorang co jg seorang manusia
yg berperasaan.
Tapi…jujur kukatakan dr dlm hatiku….bhw "virgin" bkn standar bg ce tuk dpt dikatakan sbg ce yg bae.

Co kdg tdk butuh " Vir ", yg dibutuhkan hny kesetiaan n pengertian,
n apapun diri ce walau hrs jungkir balik hadapin idup ini….jgn lah hny alasan co tuh " hny memandang fisik ku " n kalo ada co yg begitu ….ku cm bs ucapain " keparat buatmu yg katakan hal itu , bangsattttt " lol!!!!hihihiii sapa ? sapa? loe? loe? aiyaaa…